Stop this Train

April 15/11

I’ve always hated roller coasters. After taking the plunge and riding a massive one many years ago at Canada’s Wonderland, (and being nauseous for two days afterwards), the very thought of getting back on has always made me feel ill. Wouldn’t you know, I was forced to board this one, the day I discovered a lump on February 4th, and it’s been nothing but ups and downs ever since – with plenty more scary swoops and nosedives ahead.

One of my favourite songs is John Mayer’s Stop This Train. The lyrics are so brilliant, as they seem to fit any situation you can conjure up. To quote him:

Stop this train, I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t, but honestly, won’t someone stop this train?

In a later verse, he adds:

See once in a while when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
‘till you cry when you’re driving away in the dark

Then John wraps it up:

Singing stop this train, I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take this speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
‘cause now I see, I’ll NEVER stop this train.

That’s the way I feel right now. I’ll never be able to stop this train and I’m in for the ride of my life – and as Regis Philbin would say, “It’s outta CONTROL!!”

All I can hope is, it’ll be a train ride, not a train wreck.

Was hoping for MRI results today, but nope. Another weekend without knowing.

One good whistle stop along the way today was hearing from Cynthia Mulligan of CITY TV. This beautiful reporter was my inspiration to launch a blog, after she went through her own nine month breast cancer journey and chronicled it all online. Though I’ve never met Cynthia, I wrote her about Lain’s Log and asked if I could speak to her about her experience. She responded, saying she knew my work from the Global TV days (which surprised me) and offered to speak with me or even have coffee together so I can ask a few questions to help face my fears.

Having read her positive, upbeat posts, I can’t imagine Cynthia ever even thinking to say, “Stop this train.”


Kate covers Stop This Train


John Mayer covers himself! (Just fantastic!)